Saturday....Progress!

It's Saturday.



Again.



I didn't weigh. Again. I'm going to the gyno on Tuesday and will get weighed there.



However, I'm seeing progress. Maybe not bunches, but some.



Yesterday had a torturous start involving my Jeep, a mortally wounded kitten, a big fight with H(who, luckily was there as 90% of the time, he is at his house), and the absolute need in my driving a 41 yr old pick up to work that not only had no air, no power brakes, no power steering, no radio but also had no gas, so I had to stop on the way to ensure I could actually get there. Then I had to listen to every person that came by my office ask if that was my truck and then tell me their dad/uncle/cousin/grandfather/second cousin 6 times removed had one just like it except theirs was a different color/different year/stick shift...... Most days I like being the only female on the place. Yesterday? Not so much. But, the only thing wrong with my Jeep was a broken belt. H fixed it.



I forgot all of my stuff at home in the melee, so I went to Sonic and got a Sprite Zero and a Bacon, egg and cheese burrito. I asked for Bacon and egg burrito but they added cheese. I ate it. Looked it up when I got to work....15 points. Great.....


Somebodies birthday was yesterday, so they brought donuts. As long as they stayed in the men's bathhouse, I was good. Even my boss asking me every 15 minutes "Ya want a donut? I'll go get you one.." was ok. I resisted. When I went to the other building to whine to my sister is when it went downhill.....One of the guys brought a dozen into her building and ran them under my nose. Sigh.....I ate two. One for each hip. Went back to my office and looked them up. 4-6 points apiece. I split the difference and counted them as an even 10. Great.......


Lunch.....Somebody ate my WW dinner out of the freezer, so I had a WW breakfast eggs, cheese, potatoes thingy for 5 points for lunch.



But, for supper, we went out. I ordered mini crab cakes as an appetizer..the order is 6, I ate two with a dill sauce. H ate the rest.(H is 6'3" and weighs 185 lbs. Always has and probably always will) I ordered water to drink and the 6 oz Black 'n Bleu Sirloin with French Fries and a salad with ranch dressing. The salad was ok, but I managed to eat less than half. H ate the rest..... The steak finally came and it's the best thing in the world. It's a 6 oz cajun blackened sirloin steak with Bleu Cheese sauce. OMG, that is the BEST STEAK IN THE WORLD! I ate ever smidge of it and thought about licking the place, but resisted. I did resist the fries and only ate a few. I never eat dessert out like that.



Today, well, I got up and decided I needed my nails done and my eyebrows waxed. I got dressed and HOLY CRAP! I have a pair of capris that I wear that is always, always tight, almost uncomfortable even, until they stretch out after I wear them awhile.


They slid on and were NOT uncomfortable at all. None. I was in shock. Total and utter shock.


After I got my nails done, (daughter) was starving so we went to Arby's. I had a roast beef n swiss combo with a Diet Pepsi. I ate the sandwich with horsey sauce(I love horsey sauce) and drank the Diet Pepsi. I did not eat the curly fries.



Let me repeat: I DID NOT EAT THE CURLY FRIES!



So, I have left over half of my salad, 75% of my fries, and my curly fries. AND I ordered a Diet Pepsi instead of a full octane Pepsi or Dr Pepper. AND my capris werent uncomfortably tight when I took them out of the dryer this morning.



I think I'm seeing progress.

4th of July Weekend is upon us...

4th of July Weekend is upon us.....Not alot will change in my daily life except we are having a family weenie roast/fireworks at my parents' house Saturday night and on Monday I am aiming to take (daughter) to the movies.



My last few days havent been great. Ive had the munchies and, while Ive tried eating baby carrots, there's only so many I can stand before I go buggy...(carrots, buggy, Bugs Bunny, get it? No? Oh well, Im a comedian in my head)



I do very well at work. I take my breakfast shake and my WW tv dinner and as long as nobody brings me donuts or a biscuit, Im good. I have my carrots. I have pork rinds(9 are 2 pts +) so Im fine.



But, when I get home.....I dont know. Maybe Im pms'ing. I hate to blame it on that but except the 100 yrs it seemed like I was pregnant(I have 3 children, so it probably wasnt 100 yrs. But it certainly felt like it), I was on the pill for 99% of my adulthood until (Daughter)'s birth, when I had a tubal. At least then I could track this mess, but a year ago August, I had a Nova-Sure ablation, and while it is WONDERFUL that I dont have a period any more, I have no idea if the weird problems manifesting throughout my body are pms or old age or fat or an alien invasion....



Anywho.....Munching. I try like Hell not to keep snacky stuff in the house. It's difficult because (daughter) is a grazer. She cant stay still long enough to actually finish a meal, so she is constantly picking something up to eat. And, she is picky enough that she wont eat anything I refuse to eat except cottage cheese.



I havent went over my points at all this week, but I am not proud of my choices. I KNOW I will be getting weighed on Tuesday, but it hasnt seemed to matter. I wish I could say that I started this and, by golly, Im determined enough that nothing else matters. I cant. I want to be determined, but Im having some issues with it.



There is a saying that sums up my life pretty darn well:

Lead me not into temptation because I can find my way allllllll by myself.....

Easier to stay fat?

Sooooooooooo..............I had a pretty good day. 7 pt breakfast shake, 2 pt snack, 5 point lunch.



And, then, it hit me....I wanted.....No,I NEEDED a hamburger.



NEEDED it.



NEEDED.



IT.



Went to WalMart after work, walked around, bought a red onion, a package of ground chuck, some mixed greens, various other items and came home.



Then I decided I should research just how many points are in a burger. With a Bun, approximately 9, I think.



However, I came upon this website... laloosh.com. They have low point recipes that look YUMMY!


But they also have other things....Like a point calculation worksheet... Which has made me reevaluate my life.


How to Calculate Your Daily Weight Watchers Points Target

Many readers have asked me how to calculate your daily weight watchers points target. What I can tell you is how to calculate your Daily Point Total Goal!


To figure out how many points you are allowed each day answer these questions and add your score:

1. Gender:
Female- score 2
Male- score 8
A nursing mom- score 12

2. How old are you?
17-26- score 4
27-37- score 3
38-47- score 2
48-58- score 1
over 58- score 0

3. What do you weigh?
Enter the first two digits of your weight in pounds.
(for example, if you weight 198, you will add 19 to your score)

4. How tall are you?
Under 5’1- score 0
5’1-5’10- score 1
Over 5’10- score 2

5. How do you spend most of your day?
Sitting down? score 0
Occasionally sitting? score 2
Walking most of the time? score 4
Doing physically hard work most of the time? score 6

Just add all of your scores together and that’s your daily point total.

Additionally, you are allowed an 35 more "fun" points per week, if you wish to use them.



Read more:
http://www.laaloosh.com/how-to-calculate-daily-weight-watchers-points-target/#ixzz1QcVLFTPY


WTF? According to this, I have 41 points a day. And 35 extra a week. Which is not the 52/49 I was going by, by any means. Is the 41/35 correct or the 52/49?




Sometimes, I think it would just be easier to stay fat.

Monday.....Week 3

Well, here we are. Monday on Week Three. Excuse the rambling, its just that Im so darn good at it.



I refused to weigh this weekend. My scales are stupid and I hate them. I will see if this is working next Tuesday when I go to the doctor.



I do worry that when I go to the doctor, there wont be a change in the scale.



I dont miss the "old way" much. I still eat pretty much the same things I did before when offered(Like at my mom's on Sunday), I just eat less.



I desperately miss my Dr Pepper and sweet tea. DESPERATELY MISS IT. And Im not sleeping any better without the caffiene.



My 17 yr old knows Im trying to lose some weight and he is freaking out. He wants me to be "Happy" and he knows Dr Pepper makes me happy. But how does he know being thinner wont make me happy, too?



Went to a 1 yr old's birthday party Saturday. I had no interest in the cakes/cookies/banana pudding....Ok, maybe a little in the banana pudding...but I ate a couple of chunks of watermelon and 4 strawberries. I felt that was pretty good, considering.



Have almost talked myself into seeing the stupid, hateful hospital dietician again if the scales havent moved. I dont like her. Dont like her at all..... Well, actually, I do like her as a person. Shes lovely. I just dont care for her message. And the crap she wants me to eat. But, I seem to be surviving on this diet, I guess her diet, with a few modifications to leave out crap like mushrooms or chunks, probably wouldnt kill me. But, Shhhhhhhh.....Im not admitting that to her just yet.




Am I still trying? In my head, yes, I am. To outsiders looking in? I dont know but I wish they would tell me.

Words to the Wise.....

Word to the Wise......



Parkey Buttery Spray is CRAP when you try to fry an egg. The egg cooks, but its ugly when you are done.


Egg sandwich for Breakfast....

Healthy Life bread, 2 slice, 2 pts.
Kraft 2% American cheese, 2 pts.
1 medium egg, 2 pts.
2 tsp Mayo, 2 pts.

8 pts.



Yeah, I know. Im going to have to give it up and start cutting back on the "real" things soon, but right now, this was pretty good.



This afternoon we are going to my step-greatgrandson's 1st birthday party. Im always uncomfortable around them, so I wont be eating anything there. Im planning tacos for supper and maybe MAYBE I will be good.



I know today is weigh-in day, but after the weigh-in fiasco this week, Im currently refusing to weigh myself. I will find out at my yearly if Ive lost weight or not.

Well, THAT was a bust.......

Thursday started badly. I needed speakers for my computer at work. Yes,I couldve called IT and they wouldve gotten me some.....maybe in a month........but I needed them yesterday. I THOUGHT I had some at home but I couldnt find them. I took (daughter) to my mom's and we scrounged around, but all we found were her HUGE speakers, which I didnt want, and 3 pair of headphones that didnt work.


So, I was off to an early morning WalMart run. Joy joy joy......


Halfway to WalMart, I figure out I forgot my Breakfast Shakey thingy. Sigh.... I go to WalMart, get what I need, get out, and low and behold, theres a stupid Burger King.


I love fast food breakfast. LOVE it. LOVE IT HARD.


I go through the drive thru and order a BK Breakfast Bowl...(Eggs, peppers, onions, potatoes, some kind of sauce, and cheese, Maybe some mushrooms but not enough to bother me) And a Water, please.


I get to work FINALLY, power up the pc, open my email and look in my BK Bag. OMG, a biscuit. Let's just say it was lovely. And delicious. I picked the peppers out of my Breakfast Bowl and ate every bit.


Then, I looked up the points online. 15. 15....and Im not certain that included the biscuit.


I was very good the rest of the morning. No snacks. Just a 9 point Chicken Teryaki WW thingy. It was ok, but not great.


Then, supper happened. H showed up at my house with fish. Country style fish from Captain D's. Along with green beans and french fries. AND tarter sauce.


I ate every bit.


Im not proud. When I looked up the points, from a near as I can tell, I broke even yesterday. But that wasnt my goal. I was not happy with myself and now I have to deal.


I got up this morning feeling badly, but I was determined to get back on the horse and ride it til the end. I had my breakfast shake, a few pork rinds, an Otter Pop popsicle and a WW's Pot Roast w/veggies tv dinner. Ive used 15 points and Im going to use the rest for supper.



Lets see how it goes.

Tummy aches.

Yesterday I was pretty good, had some whole wheat spagetti and sauteed squash for lunch. Snacked on veggies and hummus. Dinner was flatbread and eggplant curry.  Definitely did not exceed my points.

Victory of the day: On my way to and from my hair appointment there was a USA network/Haagen Daaz promo. Free cones of ice cream! I walked by both times and said no thank you. Me, turning down free ice cream. I don't even know who I am anymore.

This morning on my way in the sign at the farmer's market said the meat booth would have chicken fried steak topped with poached egg, gravy and kale. The seed was planted. This was going to be lunch. My huge splurge for the week.

Went down a little after 11 and now it was a pork and beef bbq sandwich. That didn't speak to me AT ALL. So I got my usual Thursday farmer's market lunch. 3 tacos. 2 braised short rib and 1 lamb. And I did something I rarely do, I got lemonade. But only because I forgot my water bottle and was actually going to sit outside and eat.
And eat I did.
And now, back at my desk I feel disgusting. My tummy hurts, like I ate too much. And I'm sure the scale will  be higher tomorrow.
I don't like feeling like this at all.
Guess changing my food intake is starting to become a habit. I call that today's victory.